The thing about divorce, or any breakup of a long term relationship is, you are forced to engage in transformation. It is not a fun process. Not in the least. Thank God for therapists. And good BFFs who listen to endless 'what-the-eff-was-I-thinking', 'how-on-earth-did-I-get-here', 'whats.wrong.with.me' etc.
But here's the thing. While the process is exquisitely painful, the end result can be real growth. At least that's what I tell myself as I look forward to Faith 2.0 (or whatever version I am becoming....it's not exactly the first time am going through metamorphosis). I like myself. I love myself. Even now, in the midst of this untidy process. And that's a blessing. It took work to like and love myself. Past metamorphosis.
So here I am, a butterfly-in-the-making, am breaking out of my cocoon, and Lord, it hurts. And that's OK. Growth hurts.
At therapy this week, I came to the realization that there has been several years of not fully living in my authentic Faithness. That my light was getting dimmed. So here's to finding Faith. Rediscovering Faith. Reconnecting with Faith. I look forward to loving and liking this new woman who is emerging from the ashes of my marriage. Amen.
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